So I've decided that I'm going to write poems to get some of my feelings out so here are two of them that I have written recently.....
Blackness
I lay my head back on my pillow
Black tears running down my cheeks
Tears filled with anger, confusion, frustration, failure, and sadness
As thoughts speed through my mind
Replaying all the part of my day
Blind to the happiness in life
But arms wide open to the things in life that make me cry
Make me want to curl up and die
The blackness feeds on my happy light
Taking it all away so all I see saddens me
Failure
What I am
You're a failure
You suck at life
You'll never be happy so just give up
Stop trying you will never succeed
Even though no one else agrees
Laying here on my bed
While the rest of the world lay sleeping the streets are dead
Why are you even trying
It's a waste of time
You'll never be in the right state of mind
This life I live is tough
And it's too hard I've had enough
